I have tried to write an update every day for the last 3 and every time just irritate myself with my impatience and inability to do anything but obsess over when the baby is coming.
This is all very new to me as with Ollie I felt this bizarre sense of calm and a very clear, very strong sense that he would be early. Which he was.
Now, I feel like a slightly crazy woman who has no idea what's going on or what to expect. All I know is that I am REALLY enormous and uncomfortable, feel constantly on edge, jittery with nerves and giddy with excitement. It feels like the baby's head is actually IN my vagina and when he moves like an elephant is rolling inside me.
I am trying to ignore the niggling worries of late pregnancy. The fact that my bump seems to be so large. I keep having dreams of 10lb back to back babies getting stuck and causing havoc.
Today I discovered that my friend Sian who blogs at Quite Frankly She Said had a beautiful little boy yesterday. I am SO excited for her, really truly genuinely so, and also this has put my impatience into overdrive! There is nothing like seeing a newborn for getting your hopes up. Sian looks beautiful and happy and after a much more traumatic (but in some ways similar) first birth, I am thrilled for her that this time was, in her words "quick and amazing". I am really hopeful of course that I will have a similar experience.
For now, I am drinking raspberry leaf tea, bouncing on a ball and doing pregnancy yoga. I had some aromatherapy and reflexology on Monday and am using the oils provided to keep myself calm throughout the day. I am also making sure I embrace and enjoy every second with my Ollie who is being particularly gorgeous at the moment. I can't imagine how it will all change but I am so proud of him and so sure that he was born to be an amazing big brother.
Thanks for reading xxx