All of a sudden I am feeling a lot more excited and positive, despite being more busy and stressed with everything else than ever before: project house is in that final crazy stage where everything comes at once.
I keep thinking about the baby, suddenly it's become real to me. We think we have a name which always helps me give the baby an identity and look forward. My husband has pretty much finished his room so I can start to properly plan things, collect the cot we're borrowing from a friend, etc.
I continue to be astounded at how strong the movement is. My midwife told me that each pregnancy the movements are stronger because your uterus is more stretched, but I'm sure this is because of the posterior placenta and also a more active baby. The baby feels so much closer to the surface, to the point where I can really feel through the skin his hard defined little body, and Ollie never moved this much! I'm starting to get used to baby's movement patterns and schedule. We definitely have a 5am party animal!
Physically I am absolutely enormous and a little annoyed at myself for becoming so big. I've put on 2 stone and weigh what I did when I gave birth to Ollie. I'm going to try and be as healthy as possible in these last two months but we all know that the final trimester is the one when most people balloon. As long as I can stay healthy, but it is worrying me. I guess there was always going to be a side effect of a pregnancy with so much stress and disorder in my life with the house- I've just eaten too much. The start to my pregnancy with the extreme nausea and food being the only relief, didn't help matters.
I'm getting a bit puffy in the heat but nothing I'm worried about- generally the heat is a bit exhausting but I'm really not finding it that bad, the worst of it is I literally have two outfits which I'm rotating! I think a lot of my positive frame of mind stems from the fact that school has broken up and I have 6 weeks off. I'm trying to just embrace the joy I feel at not being in that place, but there's still the lingering worry of whether I will have to go back at the end of my maternity leave. Im trying to force myself not to even think about jobs and career stuff until the New Year.
Our new kitchen is starting being fitted today too which is another source of joy- 10 weeks without a kitchen, without an oven, without running water and a kitchen sink. It's all nearly over!
How are you?
Thanks for reading xx